What I should be doing … part 42

What I should be doing: writing Amplifier 5. You know, the book I’ve been working on since 2020.  

What I’m actually doing: writing a prequel short for a new (urban fantasy, portal fantasy?) universe. 

I really don’t know what is wrong with me. Aka why can’t I focus on what I’m supposed to be writing? Other than being in constant pain, of course.

Michael says I should be happy that I feel like writing anything at all while recovering from major surgery. Unfortunately for me, logic rarely counters fretful anxiety aka the shoulds that I allow to build up in my beleaguered brain. But … I must admit, there is always truth in the ‘focus on new words’ idea … writing is a balm for just about anything, so … maybe I should listen to Michael (this one time only). LOL

Yes, it takes multiple notebooks when brainstorming/worldbuilding a new series/universe.

Have no idea what I’m talking about? I shared the ‘first words’ I wrote for Waypoint 42 in the Muse is Not Monogamous in April 2021. Also, there is a huge hint about this upcoming project in Burgundy’s Moments of the Adept Universe 1 novelette. Did you catch it?

14 thoughts on “What I should be doing … part 42

  1. Umm so caught it! Books books books books!! Honestly I haven’t missed Amp 5 because of all the other words you have given us over the last 2 years. Please stop fretting and do what you feel drawn to.

    1. (Just my opinion)
      I’ve removed all “shoulds” from my vocabulary. I now use choice. What do I choose to be doing right now. What feels good. What makes my heart sing. I get out of my head and feel into my heart space. I’m forgiving myself for any and all thoughts that blame or cause me to feel bad about myself or my past experiences. I remind myself that when I am beating myself up or blaming myself for things I’ve said or done etc etc, it causes me pain. Self imposed pain is not beneficial to my wellbeing. It threatens my health and future selves. My challenge is to keep myself in the now moment. I choose to change my habits of old, to kind and loving thoughts. I haven’t changed overnight. It takes constant awareness of what I am thinking and feeling. However it’s getting easier to recognize when I am and stop. ❤️

      Most of us are kind and loving souls that just want the best for you. We want your happiness and will read whatever you have to share with us. I am awed by your wonderful mind that tells a story that grabs me from the first sentence. We know what a kind giving person you are by the characters in your stories. Good always wins. (Thank goodness) You always look out for the underdog and defend the defenseless.

      I live by the words of Louise Hay, “What others think of us is none of our business, because what they think is always about them and not us. “

      Now back to minding my own business 🙊🙈🙉.

      💜Beth💜

  2. Do what you feel drawn to. If you force yourself to write something you’re not feeling at the moment, it won’t be as good and you’ll start resenting it. You do you. I’m happy to read anything you write down. Really. xxoo

  3. Hi Meghan,

    Try this nifty little switch-a-roo

    Instead of “I Should” say “I could be working on the Amplier 5 novel but I CHOOSE to rest my mind and allow new ideas and insights to flow through me”

    It takes all of the guilt, blame and judgement out of your dialogue

    Liesl

  4. Write it and I will read it! I was hoping there was a new story on the way based on that hint in Burgandy’s short!

  5. Hope things are going well with the new project and hopefully inspiration will strike and you will be finishing Amplifer 5 soon.

  6. You’re amazing; it’s impressive that you’re able to do anything but rest & heal right now. Be kind to yourself. How would you treat the 5 year old you under these circumstances? Be gentle with yourself (the outside world is hard enough). I will happily spend that time rereading All of your other books while waiting for whatever you gift to us next. Take care 🤗

  7. Take care of yourself! Whenever anything is published, your readers will be there. I did notice that maybe something new, but connected might be in the works!

  8. Portals… Jade has a untrained skill with portals. I can imagine her working with Dusk to rescue Dusk’s mom even as we speak!

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